A little late! But I decided to post this here, because it took time and effort to get this done. And it’s really pretty to look at! Haha.
It took about one month to make things (including the ding dong between me and Shiz). Seeing him work with the electric board amazes me. Hahaha.
Work in progress. Super glue and masking tape are my best friend.
In case you’re wondering, these were made out of craft form, super glue, masking tape, sequins, reuse of blue translucent folders for the wings, and LED lights ;)
Everything worked great, cept I didn’t have time to figure out how to hook it to our ears by the cosplay event. So it malfunctioned and kept falling off half the time hahaha. Need to improve the design. :D But this inspires me to make more props next time with bling lights! Imagine staffs, swords, gloves that emit light… *grinz* It also made me wonder if I can make some decorations for my room. Hahaha.
To end off, a pic from that day. Can’t really see the wings cause it was taken outside ;)
I’m up early today. Not because i slept early, but because I can’t sleep. So might as well post something haha.
Click on it to see more photos on flickr ;)
MUSE. is AWESOME. I don’t need to say more. Nearly missed my chance to go for this because I couldn’t find anyone who wanted to go. But I wanted to quite badly hahaha; got hooked to their songs after downloading their album the Resistance.
I’ve already given up finding people by last weekend. On Monday Trina popped by office, a random visit, and a random mention about MUSE – how she wanted to go but couldn’t find anyone (sounds familiar?!). You can guess what happened after that.
We got lucky cause there were still seats on Monday night; the concert was on Wednesday. And we got seats just behind the standing area!
If you want something enough, you’ll get it. Haha! Awesome night, awesome company, and really awesome music! ;D
I’m supposed to be sleeping, but hey, I think there is a reason why I’m awake now, watching Adam Lambert interviews. With Ellen, and then Oprah (I miss her shows!)
And BAM.
In the interview with Oprah, Adam talked about being bored and wanting a change; surrendering and asking the universe for that change, and it came back more than he expected it to. Oprah then says “when people have a dream, and they surrender it to the Universe, or God - God can dream a bigger dream than you can dream for yourself, if you are pure in that dream.”
That really hit me.
Though of course, that doesn’t mean sitting there wishing and dreaming all that will make anything happen. Haha. Adam would not have been where he is today had he not take that step to sign up for American Idol ;)
That all really snapped me back to reality. That I have been trying too hard to work everything out alone again – and forgetting that I do have Someone to rely on (it’s a bad habit really >_>)
And it’s the second sign so far. I got to reading the alchemist lately – and i think that itself was a sign too; so that’s three signs haha (picked up the book from a second hand sale stall outside my office; it was three books for $10 and I was searching for one last book to buy. Found it stashed in the middle of some books after quite a bit of digging. I was also contemplating to get another fiction book, but something told me not to, cause I’ll probably end up not reading it. And then I found the Alchemist!)
The one thing that stood out a lot to me now, were the omens that the boy was told to notice. And he did.
I’m in the midst of a lot of confusion now. At times I really feel very very unhappy. I don’t blame anyone or anything; but sometimes it gets so bad I have the tendency to point it to myself – because I look around, and suddenly see the world filled with unhappy people, not doing anything to make things better, not speaking for themselves. And I feel like I’m just like them. It’s partly true, but kinda messed perception because I might only be seeing the surface of what is happening; and when you’re frustrated, you suddenly forget that there is also the brighter side of everything. ;)
How things will go from now on… :) I’m glad I stayed up this late. Haha! But yes, off to bed now. Have a mini department gathering tomorrow, and then MUSE. *grinz*
I always wanted to create a list for myself. And continuously add things whenever I have a crazy urge to do something 8D This is what I came up with so far. Haha.
1. Go to New York
2. Go to Japan
3. Go to France
4. Go to Greece 4. Run a Marathon 5. Cosplay - it looks simple, don a costume, put on some makeup and viola! But attempting this made me realize how much effort it is to do a costume and character right. Challenging to me; my skin is fair from fair, am a bit to the chubby side and seriously not a makeup person. LOL. But really glad for the people i’ve met ;) 6. Take up archery – the trial lessons were fun! But wasn’t something I could see myself investing time in… :) 7. Take up dancing – made me realize i have coordination problems hahaha! 8. Pick up the guitar – picking up any musical instrument is a challenge. From young I never thought of myself as musically inclined. I feel so happy when I can strum a tune now *grin*
9. Pick up the bass – it’s calling me, really. Just a matter of time!
10. Perform in a live band
11. Watch Linkin Park LIVE
12. See snow
13. See cherry blossoms (sakuras!)
14. Go overseas for charity work :)
15. Start contributing 5% of my income to charity – searching one (or some!) that I really believe and feel for.
16. Buy a massage chair for dad and mum
17. Write a recipe book
18. Write a short novel
19. Learn how to bake bread
20. Design a line of clothes
21. ???
A place I want to visit: 15 minutes . It looks like a warm cozy place where friends can hang out and have fun ;) It’s like my dream cafe! What’s my dream cafe? That’s… for another post though. *grin*
Random note: I was never a fan of glow in the dark stuff. It might have something to do with me not liking to see things in the dark (I am easily spooked – I don’t watch horror shows; getting a scare doesn’t thrill me one bit! Haha) But I have been thinking about it for a while, ever since I started sticking stuff, notes, pictures in front of my desk. Now am contemplating to put it on the ceiling, or just in front of my desk. :) Will post pictures once it’s done!
I haven’t got to finish packing my room. Think it’s gonna be a slow movement *grinz* But I do know what I want for it – a creative space that holds memories, things I love, reminders; anything inspiring.
Also, I’ll be reviving my weekly projects. Since it’s a new year, I think this is a good time :) (The stars will be proj no1 for 2010!)
I haven’t been able to sleep well these days. Been getting up earlier than I should, even when I turn in late. Haha. Thus, this post.
This is the third time I’m typing a post with this title. Haha.
One was sad, another one was hopeful. I’m still trying to find the tone of 2010. It was initially full of excitement with new plans, but things are taking a detour for some :) Now I’m just tying up some loose ends before things really get started.
This year I decided to dedicate to music. Bake crazy stuffs. Meet more crazy people. …just create!
2009 I’ve learnt many things about myself; it was a different kind of discovery, last year. Because I saw weaknesses in myself more than ever before. It’s a good thing, really. It makes everything so much clearer when you can see both sides (of anything actually). And of course there were high moments!
I have this quote as one of my screen savers…
“Life isn’t about Finding yourself, it’s about Creating yourself.”
I chanced upon it while browsing the web again yesterday. And suddenly it made so much sense. We can discover so much about ourselves, but if we do nothing about it, chances are you will still be you… and life goes on. It’s like learning a new skill, you gain the knowledge, find what you’re good at, what areas you need to work on more…. but if you don’t put the skill and knowledge to use, it will just be a learnt skill, nothing more :)
2010 will be filled with more crazy stuffs. I’m sure.
Once in a while, I get this feeling. It’s frustrating.
Just when I thought that things were getting clearer.
I’m feeling now what I felt here. Now it’s not only baking that I want to do. It struck me that I’m still holding on to the same route I did back then.
Or maybe it’s because it’s getting clearer what I want, that what I’m doing now makes me feel frustrated. Or maybe I can’t decide what I want. Or both.
I don’t know where to start. Or how to start! *laughs*
- Work has been picking up – and that opened my eyes to many things that I need to tackle. People always say I’m nice, but that’s so general. I see so many shortcomings that I need to overcome to become more efficient. One major weakness being assertiveness. It has always been something I struggled with since young…
- I have slowed down in baking. It’s a shocker when I mentioned to some my realization (I shocked myself too ;p) – that my passion wasn’t in baking. Haha. It is part of my passion, but not entirely. I stuck to it because I have already invested quite a big amount of time in it. And it was only made worst when I started selling my baking – it’s like I have an adverse reaction to anything business, or money related – when it comes to passion and interests. I like doing what I do, but adding money to that equation presents a whole set of expectations which I didn’t like having to meet.
It was only until recently that it dawned on me, i loved being able to create things. Especially when it comes to music or art. Problem is I always believed that I lack creativity (funny how I see many friends who expressed the same sentiments – are we really so uncreative?) Even when it was in baking – I always thought to myself while browsing other baking blogs, “wow, how do these people think up of all these creative decorations?” A lot of self-denial, a lot of wanting to meet expectations, and a lot of procrastination.
- My new found love in music. Music was something I liked for a long while, but it grew more on me these few years. Maybe it’s rockband, maybe it’s the concerts I have been going for, or the times where music is my companion during crazy work times.
And I finally bought a guitar! It all happened one night when Nigel and I went crazy with the plans of being able to jam together. I always wanted to learn a string instrument and be able to sing along. So the acoustic works great! Then, bass guitar? That’s next year’s goal ;)
I have been picking up books, going back to sites that inspire me, finding ways and means to organize my time, and things I want and need to do. The list is growing longer. *laughs* Because there’s so much that I need to work on, as a human being.
I have always been very conservation with what I posted online, because I do post my blog site to places like facebook and flickr. Hey, it’s the internet, even if I don’t, there’s google and million over ways to find a person. Privacy on cyberspace? Say what?
Am still deciding how much I want to open up over here. I’ve read blogs where people openly share thoughts of their sexual relations (yes, it’s a personal site linked from a foodblog). Mine has always been the opposite end, I only share things that make me happy, some reflections, and ramblings.
We’ll see. But you’ll definitely know what I’ve been browsing, just look at my links!
Before I go, here’s a video from TED that I really love.
If you have more time, do browse through TED. The speakers, their ideas, concepts, thoughts about the world are all something worth thinking about ;)
Especially when I take a step back and look at it all.
This week has gone from bad, to horrible, to bad, to getting okay. Which is now. Got nagged by, finger pointed at (though I don’t know if it was intentional on the other person’s side), misplaced stuff, made careless mistakes. Was constipated, bloated, so bad I had to go on mostly fruits and eat 1/4 of what i usually eat during meals for 4 days. Just went it got better, my eyes got swollen after eating prawn crackers, which was weird cause it never happened before. My right eye looked like I was growing another mouth last night… thank goodness I don’t look too much like an alien today.
It’s kinda strange, even when the week turns out to be one crazy thing after another (it feels like a huge joke week)… I feel happy.
I went hunting for a fruit tart after knocking off at 8+ yesterday, only to end up with a pretzel. (But yes I got my tart and had it for lunch today <3) I'm happy I can finally eat again without feeling like I have a brick in my stomach. I feel happy coming home today, managed to finish a subway sandwich while chatting with my mum. And then seeing her give curry to a neighbour when the lady came home from work. It made me smile.
It's also a joy hearing my brother from Tekong every night. He just can't wait for Saturday so he can book out and go for GCA. And his Rockband charity event, which he so nicely pulled me in cause they lack a singer. Watch out world for zao xia Cass! 8D
And then coming home every night and chatting with friends. Watching stupid videos, learning about weird beauty products (Egyptian Magic anyone? 8D), and finally being able to sleep without waking up a zillion times at night.
Crazy times make me smile. Cause it makes me see all things present in life that I so often take for granted.
My room’s mess is still hanging around. My digestion has became more screwed up over the past few weeks. I’m confused over what I want to do for work. And a sudden realization about my hobbies made me stop doing or thinking about them for a while. Still hang out with my lovely friends, but on workdays I just feel like coming home to mindlessly surf the net.
My to-do list is getting longer, to manage the above. But I suddenly feel very tired. My brain feels like going into a perpetual standby mode – so I don’t have to think, don’t have to plan, don’t have to organize.
I just want to sleep. To go swim with the sun above my head. To eat and still feel hungry! To have time to clear my room, bit by bit, to put things that I like.
Work in progress. Super glue and masking tape are my best friend.
Gakupo and Kaito, Magnet Vocaloid.
